Yesterday I’ve experience the consequences of my judgment towards the other which led me into a time loop where I experience myself in the same situation as the other hat I’ve judged. Within breath, I could stop and see the greater picture and thus – direct the moment effectively. Ok, so let me share-
2 days ago, a person came to me and share with me her experience of bouncing cheque where the person that wrote her the cheque changed his mind which is obviously a crime according to the law.
I was judging the person that came to me because according to my eye’s view, it wasn’t that fair to take the money in the first place. I had an idea in my mind that the person that changed his mind, did it because he needed the money. She said she is going to sue him for the money, that according to her rights, he has to give her the money.
Couple of hours later, I found out that someone did the same to me. Someone bought from me a closet last month, and I agreed to receive the money a month later. Yesterday I've realized he never plan to give me the money and the delay with the payment was just a part of a scam. when I called him, he didn’t answer so I sent him a message saying he is playing a dirty game and that I'm asking him to phone me back. he replayed with cursing words towards me and I responded that unless I see the money in 3 days, I'm going to sue him. He got mad and said he won’t give me the money and that I can take back the closet if I want.
Within myself, I was mad and frustrated, blaming myself for trusting this guy even though I knew I shouldn’t trust him. When I stop to breath, I suddenly realized that I'm inside a time loop where I'm able to get out of, if I’ll direct myself effectively.
I looked at what I'm experiencing, what information is inside my mind. I’ve seen that I'm acting exactly the same way as the person I judged the day before. To be more specific – from the same starting point.
Then everything was clear –
I let go the need to sue this guy. I saw my responsibility within it – I trusted him even though I shouldn’t have because he already proved to me that he is not trustworthy. I saw that I'm angry at myself and not at him. I placed myself inside his shoes and I saw an innocence being that is not aware that he’s programmed.
Yes, he is accountable for his action, and yes, he is abusive, but he doesn’t aware of it.
I won’t die if I won’t have this money. I still will have food on my table. Suing him would be from a starting point of wanting to teach him a lesson, from a starting point of superiority. Thus, it’s useless to sue him.
Surprisingly enough, he wrote me a message couple of hours later saying he will pay me back tomorrow.
In that stage, I already gave up the money and thus didn’t respond to this message.
If I’ll get the money or not – everything is cool cause I remain.
Where the humbleness comes in – when I realized I'm not going to sue this guy and that I'm actually can stand as an example to the person I judged the day before, I applied humbleness. When sharing with her about my realization and why I'm not going to sue him, I didn’t do it from the starting point of being Right. I didn’t want to make her change her mind. Then, I became humble – towards her and towards the guy.
Now when I’ve experienced humbleness – I can apply that with ALL as myself which is very cool.
People with no money do whatever they can to survive. This is why we are working on an Equal money system so people won’t have to do those things to another just because the need to survive. Meanwhile, we must be patient with those people, seeing their innocence within it all and apply humbleness.
